I choke every time I see you
My thoughts suddenly derail
It's quite discomforting
Considering I'm not sure about you
Every time, a cloud of emotions empties on me
I stand their soaked and confused
Because If it werent for you
I'd go on single and happy
I havent wanted
I've been quite content
Until I saw you that way
Until my heart decided to think on its own
I have to admit
If I could return my heart to the store
I would, even if it's to buy another on clearance
At Least then this confusion wouldn't be here
But I can't not listen to my heart
It would be a double negative
And I would lose all my dreams
And I'd be
It was a stale kiss.Not even the type of weak kiss you get just as you roll over in bed to go to sleep. It was the sign of a dieing relationship. A sad one. The kiss lasted possibly two, maybe three seconds. No passion passed between the lips. No exchange of thoughts, warmth, feeling. It was pathetic. As if it shouldn't have even started. It was almost enough to make one hate after. Almost. Which made it worse. It ached to never happen again. It begged to leave. But it kept on going. For some reason or another. And it still continues.
That night was not this mans day. None of them were for this content soul(He didn't mind). Poor Sal was quite the fool. The type of fool that people loved when around, and didn't notice when he wasn't. Laughing like a clown, telling stories, listening to stories without interruption. He lent out money to those who asked, talked and was always available for people to talk to when needed. Alot did. He didn't mind. Now no one talks to Poor Sal. They just walk on buy, as if he isn't even their. He doesn't mind. He made some of their days better, even if just a little bit. He fell asleep that night, and didn't wake up. In the cardboard
An americans youth 1-18 by Hiding-The-Truth, literature
Literature
An americans youth 1-18
You make me ashamed of what I do have
You make me ashamed of what I don't,
And whenever I want to do something
You bully me, so I won't.
You judge me as if it's necessary
You make me worry about my shape,
You criticize the things I do
You make me believe I've made mistakes.
You make me ashamed of what I do not know
You make me feel naive,
You teach me things that scare me to hear
You make me doubt my beliefs.
You show me things that shock me to see
Force me to witness things I don't understand,
You tell me what seems wrong is right
You try to force me to stand how you stand.
You forced me to grow up too fast
You tore me out o
When I die,
Will anyone miss me,
will my parents cry and weep,
and my family mourn,
will my friends visit my grave,
will any one remember me,
probably only for 5 minutes.
when I die,
I know ill be forgotten,
my dad would fake his sorrow,
and my mom will not bother even thinking of me,
my family will just forget about me,
and my friends won't even care,
when I die
there will be no holy gates,
no light to guide me to internal happiness,
nor will there be the flames of hell,
to engulf my soul,
and torture me so,
when I die,
ill die,
And I will be forgotten.
Lie's fill familys,
there smiles outside of a house,
are as fake as Bush's speaches,
stress and anger,
agrevation and depression,
fill the Familys life,
An abusve Father,
an drug addict mother,
a depressed boy,
an molested girl,
this is what fills most familys,
does this fit your,
Family Life,
like it fits mine.
The past is, Indistruactable by Hiding-The-Truth, literature
Literature
The past is, Indistruactable
The past is, Indistruactable,
The future is, unreliable,
The present is, consequensel,
The past,
Haunting me,
Killing me,
Reminding me,
Of past deeds done,
I'd like to stab myself,
50 times,
for every person ive hurt,
for ever soul ive crushed,
for every heart ive broken,
But i can even count that high,
im hurting inside,
my mind crushing,
every hope i have of letting go of my past,
im afraid of my past.
The past is, Indistruactable,
The future is, unreliable,
The present is, consequensel,
My Future,
is undeturmend,
the path i walk on,
is now i piller,
surrounded by emptyness,
i want to know my path,
be able to lay
To have the urge to kill,
is not the greatist feeling,
But to kill,
Is what makes the feeling great,
Too see the pain and suffering,
Of your enemy,
Just makes life,
All the more reason to live,
To end thier life,
Is all you need,
To make things,
Better for you,
So who cares,
If there gone,
All you need to do is,
Rid of the people that make you,
Unhappy,
With every enemy gone,
the better life will get,
You'll still have those,
who love you,
and wont have to worry about those who hate you,
once there gone,
so,
kill while you can,
And be happy with life,
when your killing spree,
Ends.
People,
are loads of shit,
they lie,
cheat,
love,
fake who they are,
and are hyporits,
i probaaly am all of those things...,
im a hypocrit,
i lie,
i fake my care for most people,
and i am not my self,
like the rest,
no one shows themselves,
we all live lies,
tell stories that some say are true,
then find out its a lie,
your heart crushed,
like i did once,
people,
are idiots,
can never find who they really are,
and so they act on what the others around them act,
i am all these things,
and just like the people around me,
i know they are too.
Corners and corners,
I'm always turning,
Never going in a circle,
But always ending up,
Where I began,
I keep looking,
For any one,
And anything,
I turn corners,
And run into walls,
With mirrors,
Hanging from them,
There mocking me,
I stand up and run,
Another corner turned,
And at the other end,
Of the hall way,
I see myself,
I smile then run away,
My mind race,
Have I finally found it?
The end to this maze of pain and suffering,
I turn the corner,
And I am gone,
I look out over the staircase,
I have before me,
To see an even bigger field,
Of corners and mazes,
I see my self running,
All ready at the other end,
Just when you think everything is great,
Just when the one you find,
Finds you as well,
Just when your happy,
They leave,
There love is fake,
the happiness they show to you at times is nothing but lies,
They just walk away,
Just when the one for you brightens the dark room,
Just when they raise you to your feet,
They drop you further,
and the light is gone,
There love is fake,
the happiness they show to you at times is nothing but lies,
They just walk away,
Just when you belive you have found friends,
after so many years of pain,
Just when you feel happy,
There taken away,
There love is fake,
the happiness they show to you
Rooms upon rooms,
your running in an out,
but cant find the way out,
searching for an answer,
but answered with only more qestions,
your head raceing,
you scream in pain,
my dear, my dear,
this is only the start,
to find yourself,
pain must be brought,
and death sought,
only you can help your self,
no one to give you a hand,
run, keep running,
always youll run,
never a door with light underneath it,
youll cry,
and ill laugh,
i am your face now,
i have one thing,
of advice to give you,
stay away from the mirrors,
never face them,
youll only fin your self in a box,
and youll die there,
lose your self there,
and begin
I lay in this bed
watching the chaotic darknesss
cover my body
i try to close my mind
and slip away to my soul
where my bloody past
mixes with my torminted present
and where my unknown and clouded future
comes into vision
yet as far as i can see
it is all just what i expected
and what i want to see
the darkness blinds me in that spot
i lay in this bed
and i know nothing more
that i already knew
and my vision dark
and no moon or candellight
can brighten up my eyes
the chaotic darkness
now fills my eyes
and my mind
the darkest of dreams are those we hold close to our heart...
in these hollow places we hide our pain...
for once in a while a dream expires...
under the crushing weight of possibilities...
and in the space it leaves a corpse...
of half forgotten fancies...
our hearts are graveyards for broken dreams...
and fate has made us walking tombs...
and we bury ourselves alive inside...
who are you
this woman of my dreams
came just in time
or so in now seems
as a child i longed for a friend like you
someone to play with until late
but life had something else in store for me
so like trooper i accepted my lonely fate
dreamed of you while i laid beside all the rest
they never seemed to be just right
one by one they all left
and i gave up without so much as a fight
tired of going through the motions
doing it for the tempory pleasure it brought
now i needed someone i could feel for
so you became the lover that i sought
you were now more than my best friend
as childish like turned to mature love
you were the hope
Current Residence: Shelburne Falls, Mass Favourite genre of music: All Favourite photographer: Chad Champoux. <,< Rawr. Favourite style of art: Fractal Art Operating System: Windows Vista MP3 player of choice: I somehow wond up with an Ipod shuffel. I dont really listen to it. Shell of choice: Blue spiked ones. Wallpaper of choice: Hmm, personally, I'd have some sort of fractal as my wallpaper but this isn't my computer. Skin of choice: I'm just ging to assume i've been an idiot sense I joined DA. Favourite cartoon character: Bugs Bunny Personal Quote: Those of us with no destination can draw our own maps.
Favourite Visual Artist
Hmm can't pick my favorite atm.
Favourite Movies
Hmm, i've lost my favorite.
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Cake
Favourite Writers
Jack. Good old Jack.
Favourite Games
TF2/Portal/Sonic/Guitar hero...I admit it, I love it.
Favourite Gaming Platform
hmm RTS/FPS/all?
Tools of the Trade
pencil and paper to write and write
Other Interests
Music, Paintball, writeing and reading poetry, Music, Gameing, modeling, traveling.
Well heyo all!!
I decided I should just, pop in you know, over a year later.
Waiting on a Fractal to finish rendering, 27 minutes left.
You should all say hi and let me know how you all have been =D
-Robb